To scan or not to scan, that is the question

Today I was thinking about how confusing life can be. The more I read the more I research, the more confused I become. I have a PT scan scheduled for Tuesday and while I feel like I don't want to put more "poison" in my body I am truly curious to see the results. There are those people who advice to only use natural treatments and those who advice to use the conventional treatments and lately I've been exposed to those who believe in using both natural and conventional treatments in harmony. Just when I think I have all the answers I'm back at square one. You know, that fork in the road. Sometimes this is okay but at other times I don't know if I trust myself to make the right turn. For someone pretty head-strong and set in her ways I seem to waver more and more. This couldn't have anything to do with all the "right" choices I've made throughout my life could it?

I am putting my trust in Jesus. If I wasn't meant to still be here I wouldn't be. There must be a plan for me. When it's time for me to be gone, I'll be gone. I have worked really hard on being ready for this. In the meantime I am wanting to make the most of the time I have left. Many days I feel guilty that I am wasting precious time. This time God has given me is valuable and I need to be using it wisely. I'll keep working on that also. As far as the other choices go, I know only I can make those decisions and I have to trust that I am following God's will.